January. Named after the Roman god, having two heads – facing opposite direction, Janus. I don’t know about you, but a month dedicated to looking back and facing forward can be dizzying. Maybe for a day or two. Maybe periodically.. for a week or so, but an entire month? Enough of Janus. Of course reflection is important. If you are like me, reflection happens often. It’s a part of human nature to know and remember where you have been, what decisions were good, which were not so good. What needs adjusting. What needs to be kept and cherished. What needs more commitment. What needs less commitment. What needs to be done with, erased and banished from our thoughts and memories. What behavior needs changing, improving – or maybe done with all together. Become older with age, there is of course more reflection of life, of decisions and actions. Some reflection is very powerful, a human guide to point us in the right direction. Mistakes, bad judgement and bad decisions are a great life lesson to be tuned into, a powerful self teaching tool that greatly encourages our mind to seek different and make adjustment.
But… you can’t stay there. It does take a blend of the good and the bad reflections to join together for solid decision-making to occur. That’s only fair. My question to myself today is, why is it easier to tread on self-doubt, bad decisions, unfair circumstances of life and that negativity? Maybe, it’s not so negative after all. It’s learning. It’s what our brains do. Why else do we seek to adjust to become more positive, more productive, more kind, more understand, more self-assured? To become a better human. To purge the build up of that area of memory and thinking, to move forward in the betterment of self. It seems simple now, that one can not occur without the other. To get to it, you must go through it. But there also must be time given – to be off the hook. Time out from going through it. Time out from getting to it.
Janus comes from the Latin word ianua, which means “door”. Janus is the god of doors, gateways and bridges. Depicted as having two heads, looking back and reflecting, while also looking forward to the future. Enough of Janus, my mind is swimming with just the thought of it. No more doors. No more reflection, no more future thinking. My future is here, today. Today I am satisfied. And for today, that is quite enough.
Time for coffee…
“Free your mind and the rest will follow…” En Vogue